FB and I are breaking up for good *gasp!*

Go ahead, go ahead, say it ... how could I? Not only am I leaving but I am dismantling the whole thing - my whole page - friends, pictures, notes ... If there any good ones, I'll repost them here perhaps ...

I started my Facebook love affair February 20, 2008 (tells me so, right there in my timeline) - so a four year relationship is nothing to sneeze at.  I've found people, blocked people, and reconnected with old friends and then unconnected with them ... not many but there HAS been FB Drama seen on my page from time to time ... *sigh* The family rule of "always tell the truth," does apply to this blog so my only filter for TMI is simply not speaking about anything I can't share the truth about ... try it sometime ... it is harder than it looks.  So is this ...

Moving on ...

Finishing two classes at university this semester and that.is.IT! I graduate and get this cool piece of paper that says so - it will be mounted, proudly on my wall, for all to see, as soon as I pay that last bit of tuition and they release my diploma and records to me so I can PROVE that I actually did graduate and paid them for my education. Now, to pay the school loan collectors ... that is a blog for another time ...

So more blogging here - no more time on FB - no more farms or cute pictures of my kids who are NOT always that cute.  No more data mining and tracking on my life - at least not on FB ... more time writing and less time cruising FB and being a voyeur in other people's lives. I actually like the idea of the time-line format but I feel too locked in and want out - what happened to using e-mail and phone calls? Even texting is better than FB when it comes connecting with those you care about.  After making this decision I had this very strange dream.  Keep in mind, I was taking some weird new meds, that I am no longer taking btw, when I had this weird dream.  In the dream I was telling people I was committing "FB suicide" by deleting everything ... so I was symbolically killing myself by deleting my FB account. Weird. I don't know, it was a strange dream to go along with all this strange weather we've been having.  But there is always a side to seriousness when things like this come up.  I mean the two top reasons a chronic depressive dies is due to pharmaceutical medication death or straight up suicide. I want to do neither but it hovers there, always ready to pounce should a weakness in my long built armor be found.  Stress is my number one enemy - good or bad - our life has to be regulated and boring to be healthy.  My high school dance teacher is a living and breathing example that being a life long health nut pays off!  Add chronic illness to the mix and that becomes even MORE important. Boring but happy - not a bad trade off really.  I had my time at the parties and the dance bars. Now it is planning weekly menus, having alarms for getting up, taking medicine, and going to bed at the same EVERYDAY - the only difference a weekend makes is that we get to stay in our jammies for longer - that rules my world.

This time change has NOT been easy for us - glad we have all of spring break to retrain and prepare for next week and going back to school. Papers and tests loom ... hope to have a couple finished before the break is out. If I can blog, I can write my research papers and study for my tests! Right? Right! Yes I can! Pray for me? <3 One Love <3